.Thursday, February 4, 2010 ' 3:27 AM :D
Dear Lord ,
School is crazy as per normal , teachers giving hmwk like there's no tmr . Nth can stop them , not even if we say we hav loadsa hmwk to do . Cried like twice(?) this month . So fast right ? All cuz of th same reason . I mean , if she wants to talk abt me , why not talk abt me in front of me , instead of "stabbing me on th back ." I've nvr stolen him , he's jus th closest friend I hav , besides rachael(who alw busy w/ floorball and other stuff) . Is it wrong lord ? I hav alot of questions Lord , and all are still unanswered . I'm jus waiting for ur call lord , waiting for my will from you . Lord , Stress is eating me up more quickly as time goes by . I want to spend time w/ u during
CAC tmr lord , but lord , Dance is in th way .
Lord , Strength is wat I lack nw lord , when will I gather th strength to go thru all th unsolved problems i hav nw ? I'm trying to solve them one by one , but lord , hav I chosen th wrong problem to deal w/ first ? Haiish , Lord , I wan to cut , but I feel like there's a force that doesnt want me to cut , like th strength of all th ppl who doesnt want me to cut and your strength is put together , to make me stop cutting . Lord , I know that I'm destroying th body you've made for me , but Lord , I rly cant help it . Stress is eating me alive , I think it alr ate like , half of me . I'm staying strong , but for hw long will I 'stay strong' ? I'm trying to face reality , but most of th times i feel like i'm stuck in my dreamland .
Lord , I hav nth to talk abt alr, so , CIAOOO ~~
Love ,
JOANNNA
You are forever in my heart , But am I ever going to be in ur heart ?
