.Friday, January 29, 2010 ' 5:03 PM :D
Dear God ,
School ws rly stressful since it started , and ytd , I jus rly broke down and cried . Its not jus cuz of skul , but also cuz of friends , family and dramatical shit that's happening nw . Its not jus eating me alive, its also killin my natural happiness .
Lord, I dont want HIM to transfer to SOTA . I understand if its in ur will for him , but lord , he's th only one true friend in th skul who i can rly tell my problems to and he wont discriminate my opinions . Yes, he's not th only friend , but others seems untruee to me . Its rly hard for me to choose my real friends in that whole pile called 'friends' cuz th flukes jus keep acting like my friends and th end up backstabbing me and all . Lord , I want to spent as much time I hav w/ him , but Lord , hw long will it be b4 he leaves me alone in th school w/ no one but you to talk to? Hw long will it be before my one true friend leaves me deserted ?
Lord , I thank you for all th good and bad things that happened in my life , for I know that th bad things happen so that I can become a more stronger person spiritually . Lord , I really wan to have happiness and enjoyment in my life , and I noe that it will happen soon . But Lord , hw soon will soon be ? And hw long will it last ? Lord , I really want to know .I need to go now , maybe I'll write another letter to God soon .
I LOVE YOU GOD .
Lots of Love ,
Joanna(ur daughter)
HELLO !
Kay , as u can read in th letter to GOD ,
I cried ytd .
Stress overwhelmed me too much and I jus broke down like that .
I'm glad that I have CAC all arnd me when that happened
cuz if it happened in th b-ball court ,
I'm sure that no one will ask me wat happen .
Things kept going arnd my head . and I cant think abt anything else but th probs that made my life so darn worse .
I had alot of hugs , but th hug frm my one true friend really made me feel so much better .
I know I told him I wasnt going to talk to him , but hey ,
crying right ? hw can I not talk to him ?
Ws hugging him for a real long time (like 5 mins)
and decided to go toilet . washed my face ,
but when I came back , ppl still can see that I cried .
Then Cat class started .
sat between rach and nick ,
so that when I cry agn (which I did) ,
not alot of ppl will need to comfort me ,
cuz both of them , I know I can trust them .
Then when th first song came out , started to think abt stress agn ,
then broke down agn , but not too much nw .
had reassurances frm both of them ,
recieved tissue frm my namesake(or was it tessa ?)
Then Cat Class ended ,
went back to class .
but ppl in class , who werent in cat class , knew I cried .
wtheck ? Ws I that pale that when I cry , ppl can see ?!?!?
But as I expected , no one asked me wat happened , besides winnie .
Then blahblahblah ,
RECESS !
Nick G sms-ed me during recess to ask if I was ok ,
(see , tell me which true friend would do that ? sms in class summore .)
And so we talked all thru recess than I had geog , dun dare get caught by teacher .
than BLAHBLAHBLAH .
January babies BIRTHDAY PARTY !
ws a blast, I think , spent more than half an hr inside . ( 1++ hr ? )
Than went for CAC!
Talked abt th big rocks , small rocks .
and we sang AMANDA a belated birthday song . LOL .
than did a letter to God , and yes ,
it is th one i so specially typed agn ,
I missed some parts cuz i forgot them .
cried when writing th letter to God .
Its too emotional i guess .
Then aft that ,
we went to eat lunch tgt .
I finished first(cuz I went to th canteen first),
then followed all th gulays to reflection rm .
SMS-ed nick , cuz we still had to talk abt why i cried . LOL
He came like 3.30 plus ?
during band . LOL .
Then yeah , and a one to one talk w/ him .
then he had to go back to band , decided to lock up and go swing .
locked up , did go swing , but didnt swing .
ya know why ?
IT EFF-ING RAINED !!!
so decided to go munche's hse to dry up and wait till th rain stopped .
Nick and Alex were stuck in skul ,
cuz they didnt finish band early enough . LOL .
then Joel , Kuya , Nick went Alex's hse swim and shit .LOL .
But we went hme .
Then blah blah blah ,
nth to say ,
BUH-BYE .
You are forever in my heart , But am I ever going to be in ur heart ?
